For the Unseen Momma

To the momma who is dealing with two screaming kids in the store,
I see you.

To the momma missing another church service because their kiddo won’t let go,
I see you. 

To the momma feeling lost,
I see you.

To the momma busy feeding her kids while others have grown up conversations,
I see you. 

To the momma, struggling, just to keep it all together,
I see you. 

To the momma, doing it all alone,
I see you. 

To the momma, running late no matter how early you start getting everyone ready,
I see you.

To the momma,  feeling like failure,
I see you. 

To the momma, aching for her kiddos while she’s at work,
I see you. 

To the momma, feeling overwhelmed.
I see you.

To the momma, feeling guilty for missing independence,
I see you. 

To the momma, running her kids from one practice and game to another,
I see you.

To the momma, feeling unappreciated and invisible,
I see you.

To the momma, feeling inadequate to handle the obstacles being thrown at you, 
I see you.

To the momma, in the mirror,
I see you. 

I see YOU!!  And you are killin’ it!  You’re doing an incredible job, momma! You are seen, you are appreciated, you are loved, despite the feelings you feel.  You aren’t just seen by me, a fellow mom in the trenches, but you are seen so deeply and so completely by our Heavenly Father.  He sees you.  He sees YOU!  In every season, in every struggle, in every triumph, He sees you and KNOWS you, and cares for you.  He hasn’t forgotten you.  He hasn’t left you. He is with you.

Prayer:  Lord, thank you for these mommas who serve their families endlessly.  I pray that you would refresh and renew their strength.  Help them to know they are seen and loved by You, and that they are not alone.  I pray you would send them encouragement and incredible friendships.  I pray you would bless them.  Meet them right now, show them you are there with them! Amen. 

Action:  Give a fellow mom some extra love and encouragement this week.

Let’s take on life together!

Megan 

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Momming & Ministry: Part II

I know that I talk about this a lot, but it can be so easy to lose yourself in motherhood.   Now, I don’t mean that being a mom isn’t the most amazing privilege in the whole world; I definitely believe this with my whole heart; but sometimes it becomes your only identity.   While my husband is the most incredible human being in the world, I find it so hard to be able to convey to him this feeling that I have struggled with since earning the title of “mommy”.

I know that he would do absolutely anything in the world to make me feel valued and like a total mom rock star, but its so hard to describe how much this little person that you birthed, or adopted, that you became a mommy to, has completely taken over your life; in the most amazing and the most challenging way.  Maybe you are super woman, and you never lost your identity in motherhood, which in that case, I need all your wisdom, knowledge, and secrets!   Or maybe you haven’t realized it yet.   It took me awhile to find out why I just didn’t feel “like myself”.

This struggle is all too real to me.  Some days I feel like I was made for this being a mom thing, which SPOILER: I was!  But some days,  I question what I am doing with my life.   There is no way to prepare you for the transition into motherhood.  Nothing to get you ready to care for someone else- endlessly.   It consumes your life.   Just to be clear, this is not a complaint, I absolutely would NOT trade my amazing kids for ANYTHING in this world BUT that does not neglect the fact that it is HARD!!!

This transition still hits me in the face, even after 2 1/2 years.   The hardest part is accepting that, in this season, I can’t be as involved with the church as I would like to be. Man, this is so, so hard for me to accept.  I have fought this reality kicking and screaming.

In High School, I felt called into the ministry and since then I have chased this dream wholeheartedly.

  Have you had passions or dreams that you have put on the back burner since becoming a mom?

Now, I should say that I am still involved in ministry, its just not in the capacity that I am used to or that is ideal for me and my ways.   I know all you seasoned moms out there will remind me that I will miss these times with my kids and look back and cherish these moments.   I know that is all too true… which makes me feel guilty for having these moments where I wish I was somewhere else, doing something else.

I am being so real with you, friends.

There are moments where I am filled with envy and jealousy.  I see my amazing hubby living out and walking in the same passions and dreams that I have, and it is so hard to not feel like I am missing out.   I look at him longingly, wishing I could be there by his side doing ministry full-time with him.

I love my kids so much it hurts.
I love my husband so much it hurts.
And I love ministry so much it hurts.

Sometimes, we forget that what we are facing right now is not going to last forever.

In this season, I’ve been praying for the Lord to give me contentment.  I want to be content in this season without forgetting and completely neglecting my dreams.  This is something I must do to thrive.  I must continue to dream.  I want to be able to teach my kids to dream and chase after those dreams.  I can’t do that if I don’t dream myself.

So, keep dreaming.   God has BIG dreams in store for you, and for me.

In these moments when I am SO VERY aware of my weaknesses, I am beyond humbled and thankful that I have a God who is strong enough to carry me.

PRAYER:  Jesus,  I thank you for everyone reading this blog.  I pray that you use my struggles and my weaknesses to encourage even just one person out there.  I pray you be with all my mom friends out there.  I pray that you would send them some encouragement.  Being a mom is so hard on its own without adding other struggles or trials they may be facing.  I pray that you fill them with peace, hope, and new dreams.  Speak your dreams into their lives.  Thank you for what you have done and are yet to do. Amen. 

Action:  Take some time for yourself this week.  Do something you LOVE!  Write down some dreams that you want to see become reality.   Take time to be refreshed and remind yourself that you are not just an AMAZING mom, but YOU are an AMAZING, and unique individual with gifts and talents!  

I am praying for you dear friends.   I am just taking this journey one step at a time and trying to be real and transparent in my weaknesses and allowing HIM to be my strength.
Love you all.

Let’s take on life together!

~Megan

Momming and Ministry:Part 1

Hey there friends!

I have missed you guys!!  This past month or so has been slammed full of summer fun for us, and I hope it has been for you too! We had friends and family visit, a week of youth camp, and finally our family vacation.  It’s been a blast, but has kept me busy and away from you!

I have a lot that I want to update you on but won’t be able to cram it all into one post. So, in this post, I’m going to share one of my biggest struggles in hopes that it encourages you. Before we get there, we have to go a ways back…

When I was a freshman in high school, God totally wrecked my life. I was a lost girl who was searching for love and purpose in things that would never fulfill me, and I was royally screwing up my life in the process. Jesus found me in the middle of my hurt and brokenness and changed me. He gave me hope. He gave me a purpose greater than fulfilling my selfish desires.

From that moment on, I lived my life completely for Him. I jumped all in and started serving in our youth ministry. I couldn’t get enough! I was involved in anything and everything. I went to camps, was called into ministry, went on missions trips, served anywhere and everywhere there was a need. I loved every minute of it! I poured myself out for our youth ministry, and it became my passion.

Fast forward a few years when I fell in love with my best friend. (I’ll share this story another time) I enjoyed every moment I was able to spend with him, and I still do! He was a pastor’s kid who spent time running from his calling, but was now on the path to becoming a pastor himself. It was a dream come true!  I would be able to be involved in ministry alongside my awesome, Jesus loving hubby!

After being married for 4 years, we became pregnant with our first child, Jaxon. We were also transitioning to our first youth pastor position. I could not be more excited about beginning this new journey as youth pastors and as parents. These were two of my biggest dreams coming true!! I was stoked!

Have you ever expected something to turn out one way, only to find yourself in a completely different reality? I had this vision of being a beaming, wonderful, carefree mom- after all, I had four younger siblings I helped raise – this being my pre”children of my own” thinking. I thought I would nail this momming thing. I was obviously very naive and had no idea how hard it was going to be.

Needless to say, I had a really hard time transitioning into motherhood. Did I love Jaxon with all my heart? Of course! Did I love being his mom? Absolutely! But, man! Motherhood is stinking hard! Sometimes, I think the most difficult part is letting go of the way you thought things were going to be. It’s hard letting go of your expectations and dreams of how you thought things were going to go and come to terms with your reality. This is something I continue to learn and battle daily.

I imagined every day being beautiful and magical with this precious and perfect baby boy and that it would all come so easy and naturally to me, but it didn’t. My days had beautiful and magical moments but they also had hard and lonely moments. I was lost and feeling like I had failed as a mom because I didn’t enjoy every single second of it. Some days I missed my old life. I missed my freedom. I missed “me” time. I missed having alone time with my hubby.

I never realized how selfish I was until I became a mom.

** I have to pause here to say, if you have mom friends in your life who come alongside you and cheer you on in your good and bad moments, you are incredibly blessed. If you don’t have mom friends like this, I totally feel you! I went through the first two years of motherhood alone and clueless. I had access to a couple really great moms, but I didn’t utilize those friendships like I should have.
If you are struggling as a mom, find mom friends who can invest in you and help you along the way, and be that kind of friend to others! I never realized how priceless this was until I was surrounded by INCREDIBLE, I mean, FANTASTIC mommies that have taken me under their wings and encouraged me on hard days. They encourage me without judgment and that is priceless.  Be that mom, friend!***

I thought that because I had a hard time transitioning to being a mother and because I missed how things used to be, that it made me a bad mom. I really beat myself up and struggled with a lot of guilt. I still struggle with guilt some days. But- now I know the importance of saving some time for me just to be me and be by myself. I have to remind myself constantly who I am and that being a mom doesn’t cancel that out.

Mom out there, who feels like she is constantly coming up short, who feels alone and missing out, who feels stuck in her day to day like you’re never going to have fun again, take a moment and breathe.  Acknowledge all those feelings you are having.  Soak them in.  Then, give them to God.   Let Him carry all the worry, anxiety, fear of what could happen or might happen, fear of you not doing a good enough job, and rest in knowing you are CHOSEN.  You are chosen for this season and you are going to be okay.

There are many days when I still have a hard time transitioning to motherhood.  I think back on the girl I used to be.  The one with crazy hair, a zeal for life, always dreaming, and I wonder where she is.   It is so easy to get so caught up in taking care of everyone else that we forget that WE are CALLED, we are CHOSEN, we have GREAT things in store, we have dreams that have yet to be dreamt, and that the best is ahead of us.

So today, spend some time with the Lord.  Ask Him to place those dreams and desires back in your heart, that spark back in your eyes, and dwell in who He has called you to be!img_7385-1

Let’s take on this life together! 💕

~ Megan

You Can’t Have Enough Ice Cream

Hey friends!

Yesterday was “one of those days.”  Where I was that mom and my son was that kid…  My incredibly sleep deprived self, got my kids up and at ’em, dropped my hubs off at work (I see you one vehicle families) and headed to summer book club!  Shout out to all you ladies who so kindly and graciously helped me in my state of craziness.   I hope the crazy exit we made didn’t keep you from hearing from the Lord!

I knew I had to leave early for Jaxon’s speech therapy but decided to go anyways.   I was really excited and knew Jaxon would have a great time playing with his friends and it would be a win for all of us.   Isn’t is great when your kids throw you for a loop?  As it turns out,  my son is not the super human who can function forever without sleep.  Apparently the perfect storm was brewing and decided to hit.  In the middle of book club.

I know that the ladies I’m surrounded by are all incredible and godly moms who were most likely not thinking about how I obviously don’t have my crap together and have no control over my kid.  I know that they are AMAZING and probably felt sorry for me and empathized with me.  I know thats how I feel when I see other moms in the same position.

Kid screaming and throwing a fit, baby crying because she’s hungry,  making a very loud and disruptive exit.   And I thought I would just sneak out.   Um no, not happening.   All of this after my toddler dumped toys out everywhere and kept screaming and having meltdowns.   Did I mention all the other children were perfect little angels?

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As I sat in the car, I immediately began texting my husband and telling him all about how horrible our child had been and how embarrassed I was.   I told him that I was never going back to book club again.   How I felt like a horrible mom.  How I don’t have any idea what I’m doing at this momming thing.  How I just felt like I couldn’t get it right.

Ever been there?

Some days go like this.  Some days I feel like a crazy person.  Some days I feel like I’m barely holding it together.

Some days I have ice cream for lunch.


But what happens when thats not enough? What happens when everything I try to do to comfort myself fails? What happens when nothing is good enough?

I find that when I try to do this on my own, I fail epically.  Ever since I became a mom, I’ve felt clueless on what I’m doing.  That’s why it’s vital that I rely on the Lord.

I need Him.

I am daily aware of my weakness.  While I can use that to remind me of my need for the Lord and the importance of dwelling in His presence, I tend to allow the enemy to use my weakness to imprison me.

My first thought when leaving book club was not, “I can’t do this, I so need the Lord’s help.” It was “I can’t do this. I’m not cut out for this. I’m never showing my face here again.”

The enemy likes to leverage these moments against us.  Remind us of our shortcomings and hold us hostage. He likes to feed our insecurities and negative thoughts so we don’t receive what God has for us.

How easy it is to allow the enemy to have this power over us.  How easy it is to focus on our weakness instead of the Lord’s strength.


Live in the Lord’s strength, freedom, and grace today. You CAN do it because God’s got you! He supplies all that we need.  We just have to ask Him.

Prayer: Lord, help me and anyone else who is struggling with this. Help us take our eyes off of ourselves and our weaknesses and place them on You and Your perfect strength.  Help us to rely on YOUR strength and not on our own.  Fill us up.  Encourage us.  Take over our way of doing things and help us to walk in Your ways.  Amen! 

Action:  When you find yourself dwelling on your failures and shortcomings, refocus yourself on God’s perfect strength.  Allow Him to lead you instead of doing it alone.

I am so thankful for my amazing mom friends.  I am thankful for the ones who call to encourage me when I feel like giving up.  Thank you to every lady who checked on me and empathized with my day.  I love you!

Surround yourself with these types of ladies and be that girl yourself.

Love you all! Let’s take on life together!

~ Megan

18 Struggles Every Sunday

 

If you are a mom to any baby, toddler, child, teenager, (or husband) you probably know how hard it is making it anywhere on time.  If you do NOT know the struggle of being on time as a mother, please, Please, PLEASE give me your secret!  Like, immediately!!!

Growing up, my mom was ALWAYS late.  Every. Single. Time. we went anywhere.  I never understood why we could never make it on time.  I now know.  I now know this struggle all too well.  I see my mother every time I look in the rearview mirror backing out of the driveway.  So… sorry mom for all the attitude your hormonal teenage daughter used to give you! 😘

So as I muddle through life trying to be on time, Sunday mornings tend to be one big epic fail every week.  Why can I not get the hang of this?  It comes EVERY SINGLE WEEK!  So… here are my top struggles EVERY SUNDAY.

 

18 Struggles Every Sunday:

 

1.  Your toddler refused to sleep the night before.

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2. You promise yourself you WILL be on time today! 

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3. You needed to wash your hair…

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4. You do your makeup with a toddler in your lap.

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5. You forgot to make coffee…

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6.  All ready to leave…. someone poops.

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7. You can’t handle one more meltdown.

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8. One last look in the mirror.

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9. Finally get in the car, suddenly the baby is STARVING.

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10. Your child hates the constraints of his carseat.

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11. Pull into the parking lot and try to get your crap together.

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12. You are late. AGAIN.

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13. You finally get your kids checked into their class 

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14. You make it into the service!

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15. You get a call to come get your kid out of the nursery.

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16. Someone asks you to lunch during nap time.

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17. Your house when your get back home.

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18. You get a Sunday nap.

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But in all seriousness, Sundays can be hard.  I find myself wondering if the struggle to make it to church is worth it and every single week I am glad I did.  Moms, you are awesome and you’re not the only one on the verge of losing your salvation while trying to make it to church.  Lets stick together and encourage one another!  You got this!

But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.  2 Corinthians 12:9

Lets take on life together! 💕

Love you all.

– Megan